Office Hours

Moved into my home office this morning and posted office hours outside my door.  Hard to believe this is where we are now.

A few months ago, I stayed awake long into the night trying to fix problems and solve puzzles.  I spent hours trying to make impossible things happen. Now, I spend hours talking to God. There is nothing impossible in that.

It is quiet in this new place. I can hear the fan spinning. The birds have finally quieted down from their morning worship extravaganza. It is quiet here. It is quiet and I can feel the focus shifting.

The focus is slipping off of me and it is a little strange to stand here in the dark as just someone.  The cat is unimpressed. I can’t help her get a job or gain recognition. I do have the power to feed her but she knows that if I chose not to feed her, there are several others who can handle it. 

My jobs today are not earth moving. My list is full of things like find my oldest daughter’s graduation plan and clean the bathroom. There are a few things I can do for my husband. And, of course, I’m writing.  These are all good things, not exciting things but good things.

As I watch these other doors closing, I try to be thankful for this respite. I spent so many years hurrying to get everything done and carrying such heavy burdens. Now, there are no burdens. I can focus on my God and my family.

In time, something else will come to take my focus and shift it. In time, I will apply these lessons I’m learning. In this time, though, I will enjoy the stillness. I will spend the time helping where I can. I will study and learn and support. I will trust.